I was standing next to my unconscious patient, when it happened. Grey dots gathered; blurring my vision. Breathe, I told myself. I knew I needed to let the others know what was happening, but I couldn’t speak. I couldn’t even slide down to the floor. All I could do was to hold on to the operating table. Everything went black.
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And you would think I passed out. But I didn’t. No, instead I was caught in this strange inbetween. I was completely powerless, but I could still hear the nurses and doctors talking. I couldn’t make out the words they were saying, but I held on to their voices. I was not going to become the student that fainted before the operation even started.
Eventually one of them noticed that I had gone white as snow. I was placed in a chair, and up my legs went. My ears were ringing, and I was blinking like crazy. Blind as blind can be. Slowly, ever so slowly, the world came back to me. I could make out “you’re not the first one.” Gradually, shadows replaced darkness, and grey figures replaced shadows.
I sat outside for several minutes afterwards, watching my feet.
I can’t explain why it happened. Perhaps it was the new smells. Perhaps it was the face-mask. Perhaps it was my sky-high expectations. I’d been looking forward to the operation for so long – imagine how I felt when I messed up so early on. I was scared they wouldn’t let me come back in. However, after dutifully drinking several glasses of juice, they did.
And for the five and a half hours the operation took – I actually enjoyed myself immensely.
Did you have anything to eat/drink before going into the operation?
I worked the ER and had a resident that was helping the doc open up a anal cyst on a patient that passed out. Slid to the floor. The doc and I watched him go down slowly. He came to after it was all over. The doc and I had a good chuckle over it.
Oh, and you look good in green. 😉
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I did, but probably not enough. The anesthesia team had some trouble, so it took much longer than usual. Will eat much more next time😆
Haha, so fainting is a common event! And thank you😁
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Quite an experience….you did well. Excellent prose….
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It sure was! Won’t forget it anytime soon, haha. Thank you:)
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You DID IT!! I can only imagine the “first time” for anything is hard, we don’t know what to expect and how we would react… but YOU DID IT! Five hours, you are a HERO! Love your photos too! Thanks for sharing your journey! You’ve got this! 🙂
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I almost passed out reading this!
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Ooof! Try not to feel so bad – it’s not everyone that gets the chance to even do that. You’ll do better next time, I’m sure of it.
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Glad you survived the operation! How’s the patient?!
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Ouch! Definitely never any fun when that happens. I can’t say I’ve been there myself. I’m glad you are doing okay and you were able to recollect yourself for the operation. I hope everything went well, and the patient is going to be well.
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Oh no! Sounds like a scary, or at least an unpleasant experience. Thank god they let you back in, and that you had a great time when you got in 🙂
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This has happened to me once in my life! Its crazy! Like you going to faint but not and can hear everything! I lost my sight then too for a bit. I always thought it was low bloodsugar or smtg I wanst really eating well back then or living well.. anyway funny! Nicely written👌🏽
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Well done on going back in, and being brave enough to post about your false start 🙂
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Powerfully emotive writing. Thanks for sharing.
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I’ve nominated you for the Versatile Blogger Award! See the post: https://katejones50.wordpress.com/2018/01/12/versatile-blogger-award-a-blogger-award-vote-plug-im-in-the-top-five/
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Thank you, Kate!
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I remember being rushed having to eat something very quickly, before going in as a student to watch a caesarean birth, then another. It all happened so quickly and I just remember thinking, stand nice and steady, stand nice and steady. A wonderful life changing experience.
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Hey Jane, I’m sorry for answering your comment so late! I just want to thank you for it, and it makes me feel so much better to know that I’m not the only one affected! It was truly a life changing experience for me too!!
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