“Two blood cells met and fell in love. But alas it was all in vein.”
In one moment it’s a monster. It is coming up from behind, threatening to eat me alive.
In the next, it’s a black cloud hanging over my head – following me everywhere I go.
But in some moments, it’s just what it is.
I feel like I am drowning in my notes. But hey, at least I can explain what happens
in my body when I start freaking out.
Have you ever been driving around, just because? There is no final destination, there is no hidden purpose. Maybe it was an early morning. Maybe it was a late evening. For me it was 13th of April, 2015. I can no longer remember why it came to be this exact day. Did I do anything special? Did someone say something? Or was if perhaps just time?
I knew I had a choice to make. One that was eating away at me, no matter where I went. I couldn’t “just think about something else”. Sure, I had time, but it didn’t feel that way. It felt like the choice had to be made as soon as possible. I wouldn’t get any rest before then. I wanted to start my studies. I wanted to move on. However, the world was calling my name.
I made up my mind driving on a long straight road. It had several traffic lights ahead. The first one was green. The second one was green. The last one was green. Curiously, this blew my mind. Right at that moment I understood the full meaning of the choice being mine, and mine alone. I could do anything. I could go anywhere. And if I could go anywhere, where would I go? Certainly not to school.
Like you read about in my previous post, I used the first half of my year of complete freedom to volunteer in Namibia, Africa and travel to Cyprus and Scotland. Now I have one half left. Where do I go from here? China? Russia? Definitely Australia. The world is endless of opportunities. Today I am greatful that I am free to avail myself of them. That for me, there are only Green Lights Ahead.